Choices

She had tears in her eyes today. They met after quite a long time...and seven years ago on this very day, they first met. It was an anniversary! An anniversary of the beginning of a lifelong relationship... an anniversary of something that consumes them.. an anniversary of something that is the most important thing in the world for them. Seven years... has it really been so long? Doesn't feel like it surely. She could still jump up on recalling their first date. She could still feel the surge of excitement that had run through her veins when he first kissed her. She could still smell the fragrance.. his fragrance.. when she leaned into his chest as he held her close.

It was the best fragrance in the world.
It was the best place in the world.
It has been her favorite place ever since.

They had been through thick and thin, smiles and tears, hope and loss. And they had endured it all, always seeking solace in their love for each other, always being comforted by the assurance that the other is there and will be there, no matter what. Their wasn't a love at first sight. Theirs was a love built through moments.. one by one, step by step.

They were madly,deeply in love.

And all they wanted was to live life basking in it, not loosing a moment being apart.

But, rare were the moments they spent together. Few were the times they held each other. Exclusive were the days they could just be with each other. Life was not all rosy.

Responsibility was the curse looming above their beautiful relationship. They could live together in love, or they could live apart and fulfill their responsibilities...follow their dreams...

And they had made their choice. A firm choice. A choice that shall lead them down the road to their goals... a choice that shall not lead them to be together... a choice that shall make them face the pain of separation again... but a choice that shall lead them closer to their dreams.. their destinations...

There were tears in her eyes as she let him go...

For her, he was the Dream, he was the Destination.

What really matters- Story

It was a beautiful evening. The wind was blowing light in the aftermath of a stormy afternoon, carrying the smell of rains and spreading it around, quenching the souls of many an enthusiasts of the post summer weather. The sky was a serene shade of grey, with clouds making happy shapes all across it. The sun shone a deep orange across the city, casting absurdly long shadows of the trees on the pavement she was walking by. She was headed towards the parking lot, after a long day of work, which was located just a block down the building her office was housed in. After a day full of sitting in a swanky single floor- multiple cabin office, discussing financial matters of uber rich city dwellers, she was relieved to be outside in fresh air. Even though the walk to the parking had taken just over a couple of minutes, her mind had already registered the calm and beauty in the atmosphere today, and she could not wait to drive around the town back home enjoying it more.

She was a pretty, in her mid twenties, independent and quite well off woman, courtesy of her fancy college degree and sharp mind. She was an instant success at her work place. Within a matter of two years she had established herself as one of the best employees around at the job. She was an indispensable resource and her seniors knew it. So it was no surprise for anyone when today at the appraisal discussion, she was offered a promotion with a coveted rise in her take home paycheck.

She reached her hatchback and opening the side door, deposited her fashionable handbag on the seat. She then moved to the driver’s side and swung her lean frame in. As she turned the ignition on, she could not help but recall how some of her colleagues at the office congratulated her over lunch and went ooh! and ah! over how she was really the one who deserved the big promotion.

They were so happy for me today. I guess they believe in me.

She reversed the car from its parking lot smoothly and turned to the road back home.

Mr. Acton, her immediate boss, had extended a warm hand towards her at the end of her appraisal meeting after being quite frank in his disclosure of his appreciation of her work this past year, and then expressed his belief in her long and successful career in the industry. “You must celebrate you success today, Clair”, is what he said while she made her way out of his cabin.

Do I feel like celebrating?

She couldn’t answer herself.

“Oh Clair! I am so thrilled! You did it, this is what you wanted and you got it!” Jenny hugged her tight when she heard the news of Clair’s promotion. “Congratulations dear! Where are we celebrating tonight?” Jenny looked at her with an enthused and questioning smile.

But she could not move past Jenny’s earlier statement.

Is this what I wanted?

“Why do you look so pale? Are you not happy with the raise?” Jenny inquired.

She suddenly came back to reality and answered. “Oh no! The raise is good, more than good. I am fine. I just feel like I need to be alone for a moment.” She said and made her way to the restroom.

Why do I feel so queasy? Aren’t I supposed to be ecstatic on getting rewarded for my hard work? What is wrong with me?

....to be continued...

Having you in my life :)

It has been so long.. that I have felt wt is it to be alone..
.. to be living the moments only I lived..

long since I felt a void in my heart..
a void that I never knew was there..
until I met You..

You walked with me through the swaths of green,
splashing your charm.. on a canvas still clean..

every step you took..
every move you made..

brought me closer to you..
ever more..

You have given a new meaning to my life..
and I am loving...
living your life along with mine..:)

..I missed you immensely in this time we were apart..
.. spent every single second of it thinking about you..
loving you even more with everything u say..
trying to feel every touch of you again..

and now seeing you after so long..
knowing that distance has zeroed..
feeling your warmth on my skin..
and having you so close..
is bringing me back to life..

I just wanna let u know..
I love You..
and the best that could have happened to me is...
Having u in my life..