lost forever

"wow mom!!this is so so pretty!!" a little girl said to her ma, the colors of the fresh spring butterfly reflecting into her tiny but wide opened deep black eyes. ma replied,"yes my baby, its jus like u!u r also as beautiful and as charming". the girl wanted to hold the butterfly in her hands....as she was about to touch it, it flew away....
Emptiness and yearning replaced the rainbows in her eyes...
ma said."dont be sad my honey, some things are not forever..."
but she was sad...she was thinking..
.....thinking deep...
will i be as charming forever??
will the love and affection everyone showers on me be forever????
will the butterfly retain its colors forever??
or will this garden with blooming flowers remain as it is???
or this spring season which i like the most of all?????....
will anything remain as it is forever????

she grew up realising at every step of life..that d previous one has just metamorphosised into somehing she cudnt understand...something that was alien to her...
she became the elder sister...there were new responsibilities...
she completed her schooling...there was a new set of responsibilities...
she got admitted to a reputed college of the city....
lost her old frnds...made new ones....
somethings lost.....somethings gained...
and the greatest thing she got inn life...love...
she loved him tooo deeply....with the same innocence with which she had once coveted the beauty of the rainbow colored butterfly.....
and the thought again crossed her mind....
and this time it ws not just a thought.....
it was something more...
something that could change her life!
"will this love be forever????"
nd now everything changed....
she was not ready to trust any1 anymore...
she was not ready to love her love anymore/....
not that the love changed....but that the fear changed her

how it feels to live with a fear...everyone knows...
fear of not getting good marks...
fear of not getting admission..
fear of losing the best frnd...
of leaving ur home to ur future world..
of losing ur love..
of getting lost forever...
and on and on....


"can't i forget all fears...and live each moment of my life in the best possibe way i can??"
this was the question that changed her life again....